Needs.

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This sums up my core needs. Control, power, the feeling of success and respect. These are internal drivers for me. They are inside me. Dominance. I don’t need someone to submit to feed my Dominance. I will force whatever I feel like forcing until it bends to me. I will always claw and fight for my position. I will always amass power. I will always amass control. I will always earn respect. I will always feel successful because if I didn’t I would simply work on changing my surroundings. I have many many times before. But this image here is a microcosm of what I need. It speaks to me in a way that signifies for a fact the only relationship for me is in the D/s dynamic. I need my submissive to be truly happy in this relationship. My submissive feeds my need to feel benevolent, appreciated and at peace. For a Dominant such as myself that means I need my submissive to balance me. She balances me by complimenting who I am. That means I want to control she wants to give it. I want the burden of leadership she wants to give it. I want to direct and she wants to follow. That is my balance. I want to reward her vulnerability and giving with kindness. I welcome all her worries and demons. But above it all I need peace. My spirit is always restless. I can not shut it off. I’m a byproduct of being a self made man. I’m the byproduct of a builder who had to rebuild themselves many times. I’m a byproduct of my life and experiences. I can’t shut off who I am. I can’t shut off my internal drives. The only time my drive for control shuts off all the way is when she happily hands it over. The only time my drive for power shuts off is when my girl submits to me completely. Kneeling for me in spirit and existing under me at all times. The only time my drive and restlessness shuts off is when she completely and happily lets go, giving all of herself over to me. I feel my power all the time. I feel restful when I’m left to myself. But I feel true peace in this act. I am a sadistic Dominant Daddy. My kinks are depravity, violence, sadomasochism, gross disgusting actions, harsh hard use. But this above, simple classic 24/7 D/s means much more to me.